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Sunday, March 13, 2011

tired of this sickness.

No! its not really like what I've said at the title. not a really sickness... it just.. ah, hard to write it. Unspeakable.
Well, i'm just trying to spilling out what is in my heart now. It just.. getting sad. So sad.
so, that's fair if I cry, aren't I ?

Girl in tears. omg, hate those words. I hate crying. seems like I'm a fool one. Fool girl. Immature one, or even a hyper.But, now i understand why are so many girls or even a woman, crying like a fool.
Ah, I am not really talk about love. I talk about Friendship. Friendship with someone I really..really..really... open  minded with.

Well. I think I  am in love with someone. This is the first time ever in my life. Before I gettin' kind of closer with him, nobody can makes me laugh off, smile everyday... (ah, and feels so embarassing when i ralized people staring at me coz that "unfinished-smile") , ... and he's the only one who made that to me.

Ketika kamu merasa nyaman kepada seseorang, kamu akan percaya sama dia. Kamu mulai terbuka, u told everything in ur mind. You shared everything what is in your life. Saking percayanya, kamu kadang akan berharap dia juga demikian. Terbuka padamu, menceritakan seluruh isi pikirannya, dan bahkan tanpa ditanya sekalipun. Ah, rasanya menyenangkan, bukan?
Tapi apa jadinya kalau dia tertutup padamu,? 
Bisa saja kita menyimpulkan, bahwa dia tidak nyaman pada kita. Tertutup pada semua orang sih, sah sah aja... tapi kalau cuma sama kita? Ah, something wrong. Ada yang salah,. mari introspeksi diri.

entahlah, this special person in my post, is really really really busy. Saya sudah tidak menemukan dia yang dulu. Mungkin karena sekarang dia sibuk or something else, he's just turned into a different person.
It was really hurtin' , ketika special personmu, lebih nyaman dengan teman-temannya. Dibanding denganmu, yang notabene seharusnya lebih dekat dengannya..

it was made me so sad.
Okay. Saya hanya berpikir, sepertinya menjadi temannya lebih baik.  Bukankah sama saja bohong, ketika kamu sama sekali tidak dianggap? Menjadi teman, pacar, atau sahabat, ternyata sama saja. Tidak ada bedanya. Atau mungkin jadi teman lebih baik.,
 hal kecil memang, ketika kita ingin seseorang juga terbuka kepada kita, setelah semua yang kita juga bagikan dengannya. Apa itu salah?
I trusted someone, comfortable with him, shared everything with him, and then i wish he could be like that too. To me, not only his friend.
saya cuma berharap seperti itu.
Hal kecil yang membuatku bodoh. Hal kecil yang membuatku sedih.

saya hanya bisa menerima dia apa adanya.

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